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"Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I’d be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I’m somewhere I’ve never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It’s so unbelievable,
And I don’t want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you’ve always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it’s so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I’d never thought I’d be."

Kuresapi setiap detik ceritanya, kusadur setiap detik suasana yang terajut.
Meski sudah kedua kali kutonton cerita itu setiap kali selalu membangkitkan sisi diriku yang jarang kusentuh.

Kubaca buku cerita lama ku Wisanggeni kuresapi setiap detik ceritanya, setiap detik susananya yang terajut. Kenapa setiap cerita yang kucerna terasa menelanjangi-ku.

Kurasakan bisikanmu ya Allah ya Robbi, Kau tuntun aku kau tunjukkan padaku melalui semua yang harus kulalui.
Semuanya memang berada dalam kuasamu dan hidupku berada dalam rahasia besarmu.
Ya Allah, ya Robbi kan kujalani hidupku dengan penuh keihklasan kepadamu.
Amiin.

Old pirates, yes, they rob i;

Sold I to the merchant ships,

Minutes after they took i From the bottomless pit.

But my hand was made strong By the and of the almighty.

We forward in this generation Triumphantly.

Wont you help to sing These songs of freedom?

- cause all I ever have:

Redemption songs;

Redemption songs.

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;

None but ourselves can free our minds.

Have no fear for atomic energy,

cause none of them can stop the time.

How long shall they kill our prophets,

While we stand aside and look? ooh!

Some say its just a part of it:

Weve got to fulfil de book.

Wont you help to sing These songs of freedom?

- cause all I ever have:

Pagi ini (10 Jan 2008) kunikmati indahnya sinar matahari di jendela kamarku,
kunikmati ketenangan hari ini, kunikmati ketenangan batin ini.
hari-hari penuh gundah yang kujalani serasa hilang tanpa bekas.

27 tahun telah kujalani hidupku tak kusangka hidup begitu kompleks.
Penuh dengan berbagai kepentingan berbagai pihak yang terlibat
dalam roda waktu kehidupanku.

Batasan Stress levelku sudah mengalami peningkatan coz life is ever changing landscape.
kehidupanku terus bergerak dari tingkatan satu ke tingkatan berikutnya.
setiap tingkatan memberikan cobaan untuk mengimprove diri kita.

Sound like we having a test but it is the real test, if you fail then
you have no second chance. Fail or pass bukan dinilai dari parameter hasil tetapi dari how we value the result and how we learn from the result.

So its kind of chain reaction, the only matter is how is our effort
and our perceiving after that effort. Positive thingking and spiritual concept adalah kunci untuk menjalani itu semua.

Hidup tanpa spiritual concept seems like we have a black hole that gonna swallow everything including your sanity.

Thank you and Best Regards

Black is my color orientation.

Some how i felt black is representing my self.

Mysterious but keep on moving forward absorb things that i need to absorb and accept all things happen in my life with an ever growing heart, but still..optimist and strive to move forward finding new doors and lay down new path. Fuel me up with curiosity and drive me for better of me (I Suppose).

Seeing Black i saw an welcoming comfort that accept me with what ever i have inside. and also a powerful strenght and courage to crash down what ever boundary that stand over.

Thank you and Best Regards

Lebaran ini kulihat beberapa omen yang membuatku
menyadari bahwa kita harus terus berusaha membangun bangsa
ini menjadi bangsa yang lebih baik. Dan jangan pernah menyerah.
Jangan menjadi seseorang yang apatis dan terbawa arus materialisme.
Apapun atau seberapa kecil usaha kita, sedikit banyak berpengaruh terhadap bangsa ini
atau orang lain.
So do not be an apatic person.

Bangsa ini sudah terbawa ke arus materialisme.
Bangsa ini sudah terdidik money is everything.
nggak perlu berpikir terlalu jauh, asal ada uang no problem.

Kadang kulihat terdapat pembodohan,
kalo kondisi Indonesia sekarang ini
memang sudah seharusnya seperti ini.
Aku lihat banyak anak2 putus sekolah di daerah,
Banyak Gelandangan di pinggir jalan.
Imagine kalo uang korupsi di negara ini dikumpulkan.
semua warga negara ini pasti dapat hidup layak.
Terkadang kita sebagai warga negara apatis.
ah cuman sedikit aja korupsinya,
ah bukan karena aku nggak korupsi negara ini jadi kaya,
so is Ok kan cuman dikit.

Bisa bayangkan dari sedikit dikali sekian banyak orang.
Belum terhitung yang memang koruptor kelas kakap.
dan belum terhitung pemiskinan negeri ini dengan menjual sumber daya alam
dan menjual kekayaan negeri ini ke perusahaan tambang luar.

aku berpikir selama kita masih bisa berusaha dan memberi,
kita lakukan apa yang bisa kita lakukan,
kita beri apa yang bisa kita beri.
besar atau kecil yang kita lakukan dan yang kita beri bukan masalah.
Coz kita dinilai bukan dari apa yang kita beri dan yang kita lakukan,
tetapi kita dinilai dari daya dan upaya yang kita berikan.

So for you Guys out there, do not be apatic.
our effort is nothing compared what this country already gave to us.
so do not stop doing something for this country.
if not us who else.

Best Regards

Well i dont have any idea the feeling i have inside,
life has is own weird way to drive our destiny or give us guideline to get through our destiny.
Sometimes the main problem is we forgot and lost what our destiny is.
i involved in a battle of will, which path i have to go.
what i do is, i try to understand a sign from God,
i do my best, gave out my self more than i expect i can give.
"no matter what happen i have to keep on going to reach my final destiny"
after that i let God to decide and to evaluate effort i’ve done
and ride the wave of life.

If you stop and think about it today, you’ll realize that the greatest battles of your life have been battles of will.

So if you encounter conflict today, keep that in mind. If you can focus your brainpower on achieving one goal today, there is nothing and no one that can stop you.

Do not accept compromise just for the sake of keeping the peace. Move forward with your ideas. If you display all the confidence you feel, you won’t ruffle any feathers — you will inspire people.

This Familiar insting rising again, pump up my stress level into almost peak level, Well pressure is my middlename and deadline is my last name. I live with it, eat, sleep and have an adventure with it.

This insting somekind like insting for survival, i remember my friend said "Tight Deadline is a mother of all invention" well even i’m not agree 100% but i agree that it will push us to think out of the box. But it truly depend on which box we are, small box, big box, huge box or universe.

I believe in fate and i believe our duty is to push our self into the limit, after that God fate will tell you what to decide.
It might be already become my destiny to face almost the same situation with higher level of difficulties.

So it is become my duty to push my self to overcome this. This could be a way out of my current box or only a ladder to get me to top of the box but not yet out of it.

Wish me luck,

Best Regards

cara termudah merasa bahagia adalah
dengan melihat sisi POSITIF dari DETIK
INI, FOKUS pada SAAT INI, dan MENIKMATI
HARI INI.
karena itulah milik kita satu-satunya.
bukan beberapa menit lalu atau satu jam
kemudian.
apalagi kemarin, beberapa tahun lalu,
bahkan besok?!!!
siapa tahu ini hari terakhirmu?
kenapa tidak mendengarkan hatimu,
melupakan anggapan orang, berbuat
sedikit gila, tertawa, dan merasa
berbahagia?